In my life, I love you more

I love this Beatles song. Love, love, love it. It reminds me of Rob. It reminds me of being pregnant with Daisy. I played it over and over. I even had the Beatles blue – or red – best of albums in the delivery suite which we played when I was in labour with her. Since I have been with Rob (and his family) I feel like I have got a better understanding and appreciation for the Beatles. My Mum has always been a fan, and my step dad too but somehow I feel like I just get them now. I love the simplicity of their songs. Each of them evoke their own special memory for me – they instantly capture something I was feeling at the time that I started to loved them. They instantly bring emotion to me (Blackbird just makes me cry and don’t even get me started on Here comes the Sun). Sure, some of them just plain piss me off and annoy me (ticket to Ride anyone?)…but I mostly love them and somehow know ALL the words to almost ALL of them.

Rob’s Dad has also been a huge influence on me and my new(ish) passion for them. He loves them. Plays his original vinyls up at the farm and has taught me to listen and appreciate them. When his only, lovely sister died way before her time 2 years ago now, they played her favourite Beatles song at her funeral. It’ just reminds me of all things Macdonald.

Alan (Rob’s Dad) and his partner (for the past 9 years) Sue are getting married this weekend and I am SO excited for them. They are getting married up at their farm EIEIO (where Rob and I were married almost 4 years ago) and I just know it’s going to be a lovely, special occasion. It is always weird to witness your parents getting remarried for whatever reason – my Mum and Dad have both remarried and I remember them (whilst being completely different) as being a special occasion for me as their child to see them firmly state in front of all their friend’s and family their love for their new chosen partner. I think when you are an adult yourself, when you yourself are married and you know what that decision meant to you and how important it was to you at the time, that you can be there and see your own parent do it…well it’s special. And wonderful. I am so happy that they have decided to make the commitment – to get married and to do so in front of us all as witnesses. To show us that they take this seriously. This love. This life they are continuing together. It’s always special when you are involved in a family wedding – a brother or sister – and this will be no different. For me anyway.

PLUS…we have a weekend away without Daisy! She is staying in Sydney with my Mum for the weekend so Rob and I have a whole 2 days and nights together to just soak up all that love! And memories of our own wedding. And where we have come. And maybe even have a chat about where we want to go. It’s going to be great fun to see some of the family we haven’t seen or spent time with in a while, without kids hanging off us. We may even get to have conversations (!) together. I know there will be swimming. And croquet. And french champagne. And laughing. And dancing. And no doubt Beatles.

In my life

There are places I’ll remember
All my life though some have changed
Some forever not for better
Some have gone and some remain
All these places have their moments
With lovers and friends I still can recall
Some are dead and some are living
In my life I’ve loved them all

But of all these friends and lovers
There is no one compares with you
And these memories lose their meaning
When I think of love as something new
Though I know I’ll never lose affection
For people and things that went before
I know I’ll often stop and think about them
In my life I love you more

Though I know I’ll never lose affection
For people and things that went before
I know I’ll often stop and think about them
In my life I love you more
In my life I love you more

Lennon & McCartney


  1. “thankyou for being such a knowing and special daughter to me…as requested I feel I must make a comment on this entry.
    Not only do you bring me to tears as I read those beautiful lyrics, but you validate deep inside me that you are growing wiser and able to write so fluidly and with such feeling.
    I anticipate each entry with joy…. for the sadness… the happiness (read, “14 minutes”…. the frustrations, the discoveries that you are able to pour onto the screen.
    Keep on outpouring….you do it well and often. For that we are all grateful.

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